My world is so solemn, i always kept on thinking about my dearly beloved friendz that i left at my hometown. I do believe that somehow we will meet again,.. Although i have my new friends here at my new school it seem like the shadows of my past are always sneaking behind me memoirs,…
I won’t forget everybody,…”hahahahahahahahaha nonsense i am just missing you mii friends.,….
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i can’t undersand my Atttude right now,..fells like i’ve changed a lot,.. i can’t explaine the changes that are happening to me,.. i don’t know why,.. huhuhuhu it had been 1 month since the last time that i had contact with him… no talk,..no text,.. we don’t even smile at each other when we passed by the corridor of our school, at our room, at the canteen,..everywhere,.. it seems like we don’t know each other,.. like we are both strangers to one another,.. and now,… what had happened,.at a glimpse of an eye.we are now txt’n with each other,..talking to each other,..bonding and most of all it seems like nothing had happened,..the world is too unpredictable,.. it just happen,..and when it does,.. you can’t do anything,..all you have to do is GO WITH THE FLOW!! hmmmmmmmmmm,… i’m happy,..,.. i can’t tell you what’s really going on,.. because it is just betwwen me and him,. it’s not private but i should keep it to myself,.. now i can breathe, face the world,..face my self,..face the reality then smile,.. how can you ever forget the one you’ve loved if the person you’ve once loved shows too much affection????…i may tell my friends that i don’t love him as much as i loved him before.. i may not show too much affection.. i could deny my feelings for himas much as i can, but i can’t deny this to myself,.. i’m confused and i’m bothered,.. i don’t know what to do.. what is my purpose for writing in this BLOG?? seriously i really don’t know.. all i knew is,.. i have to let go of my emotions,.. i wanna be free,!! i wanna escapefrom the grip of my past and continue my life as i’ve once had… i wanna turn back the moments when I,.. as a simple person can’t be hurt by others.. At the moment i am stepping my pride with my bare feet. i always remind my friends not to put their heart over their brains. Because if they let their feelings takes over their brains,.. they will all end up in one thing,and the thing would be pain. Pain will always be the endpoint of this foolishness… But you know i am not afraid to face the pain… why??? Because the pain that i’d once felt,.. is the pain that would be the burden of my life… But i’ve surrendered e4verything to god,.. i don’t know what will going to happen,.. tomorrow,…but one thing is for sure,… i want to leave the dark side of my life,.. and start building a new life,.. with somebiody else,.. somebody who wound’nt leave me in pain….
xoxo █ █ █ █ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ █ █ █ █ my heart had been caged,.. help me escape!! ☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺
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